Living Hopefully With Lupus
What Is Your Thank You List?
I know our lives are not a dream, but we can make it better if we want to.
At times, we may choose to carry on pain, fear, self-doubt, and sometimes fill our days with: “I can’t, I did that, I suck on this, I tried, I wish, I don’t have, or maybe one day … blah, blah, blah. Why we, the smartest living creatures on this planet consciously choose to do that?
What is Your Birthday Wish?
I am a Scorpio. I know this sign comes with the stigma of being dominant, very sensitive, critical, and passionate. Above all, I see myself as an intense person.
I am never comfortable settling for an average result. When I aim something, I am all in to win.
That comes with an extra-weight of self-pressure, high expectations, and a need to control every tiny bit of the situation. I naturally focus on what can be improved instead of celebrating what has been done right.
Until lupus came uninvited.
About 6 years ago, near my birthday, I felt the weight of the word lupus for the first time. The bundle that it brings combines muscle and joint pain, the feeling of impotence, exhaustion, and above all, frustration.
5 Steps to Practice Self Awareness
Practicing Self Awareness is something I have been trying to do for the past year. Understand my new life goals and emotions better, has been critical to be more content in the present moment.
How I perceive something directly impacts my physical wellbeing. My thoughts can make my mind fly at 100 miles per hour, and trap me in non-sense beliefs that can trigger all sorts of pain. The sense of lack of control increases my stress level and makes me feel impotent.
I feel empowered and stronger when I choose my thoughts and emotions thoughtfully. Being self-aware means being able to take on what is right for me and discard what is not.
